Reproach-Be gone!

Autumn is officially two and I'm not sure how much difference this will make it what seemed like an already terrible time in our lives. Should I expect more defiance, tantrums, big messes...? Someone reassure me that I will get through this! Celebrating her birthday was just a reminder to me of the awesomeness of Christ. I've been emotionally full all weekend. Partly due to the fact that my mom and sister was in town and I'm always that way when they are visiting. But mostly because Autumn is my "exceedingly above all that I could ask or think" baby. After we found out we were pregnant with Summer, after three years of trying and one year of turning it over to God, we were so grateful to God for hearing and granting the desires of our heart. We didn't think, in fact we were told that we would never have a baby without science. Science is cool but God is all powerful. He proved science still has to marvel at His Work!

I believe the Lord turned back His reproach and opened my womb twice so that my sisters struggling with infertility would be encouraged and He would be glorified! Have you ever had God remove the reproach in an area of your life? Perhaps for you it was the reproach (shame, disgrace) you felt over the divorce. Maybe it was your bankruptcy....singleness....HIV....motherhood out of wedlock, abuse,financial ruin. Whatever your reproach was or is let me encourage you that God can take away the reproach! That doesn't mean the pain of it is gone or the stigma attached to it automatically dissolves. It does mean that He has a way of restoring, granting or fixing your mind and spirit. The reproach of my barrenness was resolved when I stop talking to fertility doctors and ceased my efforts of assistance. Before He opened the womb peace and contentment had already filled my heart. I'm not saying that infertility is wrong. God allows science to progress and much of it can be used by Him to work out His purposes in our lives. It was His will for Cy and I that we sit down and wait on Him! So, as I'm writing I'm thinking it would be wise for me to thank God for every second of Autumn's terrible two's because soon the reproach of this difficult age will be gone!