The Big Return

Last Tuesday was my big return to work day. I got out of bed about 5:00 AM just after nursing Autumn, excited about returning, afraid of what I might find and looking forward to all of the ways God would manifest himself. Well, let me tell you-by 12:00 noon I was irritable, sleepy and ready to die from the feelings that overwhelmed me. While I was indeed happy to see everyone, I missed Autumn terribly and kept wondering if she felt abandoned. By 4:00 I was asking myself why I had taken four months instead of the standard 6 weeks. It didn't feel like I could ever catch up, too much had taken place and too much missed. Guess what? I did make it through the first short week. In fact, Autumn seems to have survived it quite well. It's the end of week two and I'm still behind and uninformed on several things but my perspective has returned and I'm enjoying adult conversation. The world outside of Autumn Cymone and Summer Cynae seems to have moved just a little faster without me but I'm glad I'm back to expand my world just a little beyond them!